what did i get myself into?

OK, so here is a quick background on the situation... I met this guy (I know, I know, roll your eyes) and he is GREAT! I mean, he is a good listener, great to talk to, and not too bad on the eyes! :) Anyways, we really hit things off... everything is perfect... except one thing... he is married! I know, I should not have gotten involved, but what's done is done. So this guy, we will call him CT, told his wife everything about us, I mean EVERYTHING, and they talked about getting a divorce. Well, now she says she is sorry for pushing him away and she wants to work things out. He doesn't know what to do... blah, blah, blah. My thoughts? Her "new found loving/accepting attitude" will last... 3 months... max! But that's just my 2 cents. So anyways, we talked last night about everything. Well, kinda, it was more like "here I wrote you this letter, cuz I know I wont say what I need to say." So, I thought this would be an interesting post... here is the condensed version of the letter:

I am really sorry about my attitude lately. I know that you have a lot on your plate, and I guess I do too. I know that you keep telling me how you feel and I am dead silent afterwards. Its really hard for me to tell you my feelings. If I tell you my true feelings, it is not going to make things an easier for you. Someone is going to get hurt in this situation. Just be honest... be honest with me, with your wife, and with yourself. If you think there is any way for you two to work things out, let me know so I can exit the picture. If you are trying to work things out with her only because everyone is telling you that you owe her that much, tell her. I don't want to cause more stress for you, so I am going to stop the whole "us" thing. Until you really know what you want and need, we can talk or whatever, but nothing more. I am beginning to feel used, and I know you probably don't intend to do that. But this is how I feel. I think that in order to get something you never had, you have to do something you have never done. So I have never just given up or told someone I have feelings for goodbye. I am just going to give you all the space and time that you need to figure things out on your own. I cant and don't want to make your decisions for you. I don't want that hanging over my head. I want you to think about what you have with her, and what you could have with me. Make the decision that makes YOU happy!

He said that he didn't know if they would work out, and felt as if it wouldn't, but that he just couldn't see himself ever telling me goodbye. I told him that this isn't a game, that he isn't a trophy to be won. I know that the more I push him to "pick" me, the more I will eventually push him away. I really do care for this guy, and I never intended for anything to get this far. Oh well. So I basically told him that if he really wanted to be with me to prove it, to come talk to me after the papers are signed. He is not going to get to get his cake and eat it too. So, now I really feel like crap, but I think deep down, I did the right thing. So, besides "you should have never got in this to begin with" any other words of advice?

So, basically now I am trying to figure things out for me. I think that writing is a good way to deal with stuff.... so until the next episode! HAHA :)