agape

OMG!! So I found out that actually getting the tattoo on my ribs is nothing compared to the pain you feel the next day. Seriously, I feel like I have been beat with a baseball bat. My entire left rib cage is bruised. Oh well, it was worth it! So everyone keeps asking what my tattoo says and what it means. It says "agape" and it Latin or Greek (can't remember) for "unconditional love." It summarizes exactly what I need right now. I mean, think about it -- isn't that what we all need? Unconditional love? I know I do. Someone that I can tell every part of my life to, and that person still loves me. All of it, the good, the bad, the totally messed up side that I try to hide. I want someone that knows me better than anyone else, and loves me more than anyone else.

Saying that my mom is not too big on tattoos is an understatement. She HATES them. She asked why this particular tattoo, I told her what it represented to me. That it was going to remind me of what I deserve and need... and what I will get. She didn't like that tattoo idea, but she said she understood. She knows all the crap I have been dealing with, and that I still am dealing with. I know I don't deserve what I am putting myself through, so this tattoo is going to help me, to remind me that one day I will get everything I want, need, deserve, and that I am waiting for. Now don't get me wrong, I am still gonna have fun! I just am not going to get myself worked up over something or someone that I have to "settle" for. So, I will still be me, just waiting on this "agape."